And He did!
And there it was, a yellow caution barricade light, blinking slowly, it would come on for a few seconds at a time then go off for even longer.
Blinking so slowly, I thought I had imagined it. I stopped, blinked my eye’s and waited. Yep, there it was. A barricade light, blinking, very slowly. It had a weird timing to it and looked as if it were hovering up in mid air.
A caution light. That actually makes sense right now.
I had driven this road the day before, there was no construction going on.
I looked up to God and said, “Ok, I’ll walk up to the light and see what’s going on.”
As I continued on I realized why it looked like it was floating. I was walking up hill. “It must be at the top of the hill”, I said out loud to myself. I made it to the light, it was one barricade light at the end of a driveway. And what to my wondering eye’s did appear? Nope not reindeer, but civilization. I had made it to the river. There is a supper club there, they have a giant bear statue out front and there are homes and cabins in the area.
It is about a twenty minute car ride from where I started and about fifteen to twenty miles to the river. I took a break. I thanked God. After watching two vehicles go by I realized I was still angry, so I started walking again.
I never made it back to where I started and ended up walking about twenty five miles before a nice lady pulled over to give me a ride.
A friend of mine, my best friend, drove three hours to come and pick me up to bring me home.
Everyone should have a friend like that.
For my walk I ended up with, a hurt foot, I left my dog behind and my grown kids were worried.
I also haven’t had a drink in two and a half years and I haven’t had a bout of depression since that night.
I believe God has removed those afflictions from me.
Because both desires are gone.
I also ended up realizing that God is a big boy and can take us being mad at him. We do not have to tip toe around him. Let it out! Let it all out! Honestly!
He removed my affliction in such a way that it could only have been him. He does that for me. He does things that leave me no doubt as to the fact that He is God and He did a thing in my life for me, for his glory. For his namesake.
And now instead of discouragement and despair when I think of my depression, I am filled with joy. I never knew what real joy was until God removed my depression.
“.. and ye shall be sorrowful, but…
your sorrow shall be turned into joy.”
John 16:20
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